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Lauren, Jasmine, & Heidi  2


This is a hard time of year for us and for many of our family and friends. It was six years ago Friday that we received news that my cousin, Heidi, and her baby Jasmine were killed in a car accident. We are so grateful for Jasmine’s twin, Joseph, who is a happy little man. He and JoAna are precious reminders of Heidi and Jasmine. A year later, on March 15th, little Lauren Moyer left us after a short 10 weeks. There are many sharp memories in my head that replay from that time, making it hard to believe that these events were so long ago. Through it all we have to believe that God has a plan bigger than we can conceive. Here is a blurb from Jamie’s blog from the day Lauren would’ve turned five. Please pray for Matt & Jamie and for my family as you remember them this week.
Saturday, December 23, 2006
Time stands still
Everything seems to happen so fast. Time goes by soooo fast. Matt and I have been married for 7 years and are having our fourth baby! When did all that happen?! The boys are growing up so quickly and time just keeps on doing it’s thing. It’s different though when it comes to Lauren. Today she would’ve turned 5 years old. It’s hard for me to wrap my head around. We were never able to watch her grow up, she is stuck at 2 1/2 months. She will just always be that for me, my little baby girl. My baby who will always be a baby. I couldn’t imagine her at 9 months or 2 years and most certainly not 5! She is just a precious, tiny baby. It will be that way no matter how much time passes.
I know something now that I didn’t know then. Some of the greatest gifts God gives us are a disguised in circumstances that don’t look so “gift-like”. I remember getting more and more bad news from doctors and I just kept thinking “Why did God give us such a beautiful gift only to take it away from us.” But that’s not how it happened at all, looking back. God gave us the beautiful gift of Lauren and she will remain in our hearts forever! From the moment I laid eyes on her (probably before), she had my heart. She nestled her little self right in and has been there every since. The Lauren spot in my heart is not an empty space to be filled with something else now that she isn’t with us here on earth. It is fully occupied with my love for her that will never change or go away. No other child will fill it, no amount of counseling, happy times, or gifts. It is already filled to the brim and overflowing with her…her memory and my love for her.
Today there will be no party, no gifts, no cake with five candles on it. The celebration will happen in our hearts though as we remember what a wonderful day December 23, 2001 was. The day God gave us our baby girl, Lauren. I know God hears the cries of my heart and I’m confident that today in heaven she is getting lots of extra hugs and kiss meant especially from her mommy and daddy.
Heaven is lucky to have her!

Glad to be Home  2



We were a bit concerned about the cough and fever Kate developed last week. When we went to the Doctor, he confirmed a bit of congestion, but then told us some scary news: Kate’s heart rate was really high and he was going to send us to Flint (the same hospital William spent his first 8 days in). He wanted us to see a coronary pediatrician. Yikes. Long story short, we spent 2 days in the hospital while Kate recovered from a mild case of pneumonia. We are all feeling much better now. I just finished a Bible study from the book of Daniel and the whole weekend was reminded of a great lesson I learned. God gives us big miracles, but in the midst of those miracles, he often gives us “mini miracles” that we don’t often give Him credit for. So here is my list of “mini miracles” from the last week . . .

  • We are thankful for great friends who were able to change their plans at a moment’s notice to take care of William. And we are thankful for a son who is so easy going and easily adjusted to some pretty crazy days of being shuffled around. Mom was able to come up and be with him for the last day, which helped him get back to normal.
  • Speaking of Mom, I’m so thankful for a mom who is willing to drop everything and drive 4 hours to help out. It eased our stress level so much. Plus it was great to come home to a clean house, no laundry, and a good meal.
  • Our biggest miracle is that Kate’s heart is strong and healthy. We are so blessed with healthy kids. Being in a pediatric unit is not the most encouraging place to be and we quickly realized how blessed we are.
  • We are so glad to only have one child in the hospital. William and his friend, Addi, got into the salt de-icer at the church. When Addi’s mom asked them if they ate it, William replied, “Yes, we didn’t.” She had to call poison control and flushed a bunch of water through them.
  • Poor little Kate got poked 8 times while the nurses tried to get an IV into her. Every single one of her veins collapsed on them. By the time it was over, we were all crying. It was so terrible, yet they were scared of her getting dehydrated. Finally the nurse told the doctor she would not try any more. We were so thankful that she stood up to him and also thankful that Kate continued nursing normally so she did not get dehydrated.
  • After some pretty terrible meals (the picture is of pureed green beans and mashed potatoes and gravy– obviously we received someone else’s meal!!), we were so thankful when our good friend Zeke, who owns our favorite Tim Horton’s restaurant, brought a huge bag of food and goodies to us. It lasted us the rest of our visit.
  • Finally, on the morning we were discharged, the doctors made their rounds extra early, allowing the nurse to start the paperwork over an hour early. She brought the papers into us around 10:00, saying that she had never discharged a patient so quickly. We were home by 11:00. Peter had not started preparing for his sermon, and also had a funeral to prepare for. We had over 4 hours extra for him to get things done.

We are again reminded of a God who cares for us and who shows up in every little thing. I am overwhelmed by how much he provided for us– and then I think of all the hundreds of patients in that hospital. God must do millions of “mini miracles” and big miracles there each day! It would be astonishing to know of them all.