Eliza and I were in the car, her chattering behind me the entire time. I did my best to listen, really I did, but after 45 minutes, I must admit that my responses were mostly, “mmm-hmm” and “ok”.
But she kept repeating the same thing over and over.
“I want to go up there, Mama!”
“You get ladder, Mama, and you climb and then you pull me up and ours car, too.”
“How they get up there, Mama?”
I couldn’t figure out for the life of me what she was talking about. And then I noticed a pattern. Every time we went under an overpass, the conversation started again.
An overpass. She wanted to go on an overpass. Her little imagination was in overdrive, trying to figure out how we could do what those other cars were doing.
I. loved. it.
The world is so big, so wonderful to her right now. Everywhere she turns, there’s something new to discover and understand. It is one of the most awesome things to have a front row seat to my kids’ spinning gears, to be the one that they talk to about the mysteries in their lives.
Do you ever just feel like the wonder of life has disappeared for you?
Colors seem faded.
I’m just tired.
I wake up in the morning, my mind immediately scrolling through all that needs to be done.
I don’t want to live like that.
I want the wonder of the world to be bigger than whatever circumstances I face today.
I want to believe that God is bigger than any boxes I try to put Him in.
I want my eyes to be like the eyes of my children– bright, searching, taking it all in.
I want to live this one life I’ve been given in a way that means something, that makes a difference in this world.
I want to be excited about life, full of love for my Savior.
I want Him to use me in ways I never imagined.
We indulged Eliza a few days later. We drove her up on an overpass. Her eyes got big and round and she was so excited. It was the littlest, silliest thing, but to her it was a dream come true. We were “up there” and it didn’t even require a ladder!
What silly dreams do you have? Maybe they aren’t so silly. Maybe God’s just waiting for you to voice them to Him. He’s created you to live this life you’ve been given. Live in the mystery and the wonder of it all.
That’s right—if you make Insight your priority, and won’t take no for an answer,