It makes me so happy you’ve popped onto my little site. I hope you’ll stay long enough to get acquainted. There are a few things I want you to know about me:
I grew up in northern Indiana, went to college in Lexington, Kentucky, and graduated from Asbury University with a B.A. in Christian Education. I’ve loved Jesus with my whole heart since I was a little girl, but experiencing grief and tragedy has changed my relationship with Him in ways I couldn’t have imagined. He has given me comfort and hope in my darkest places.
I’m married to Peter, who works hard at his job as a lead pastor of a Wesleyan Church. When we got married, I didn’t realize the gravity of his vocation– it is much more than just a day job and it’s exponentially tougher than I ever imagined it would be. And while there are many great days and the longing to serve people is buried deep into our souls, we sometimes lie in bed, staring at the ceiling, wondering just how we’re going to finish the work God has called us to do.
In 2009, our third child, Annie Jane, died just six months after she was born. This was the huge pivot of my life… when everything I thought I ever knew needed to be repackaged and reexamined and refined. Through her, Jesus is showing me what redemption and healing are really about. Those years surrounding her birth and death are both strangely clear and fuzzy… which really doesn’t make sense, but not a lot of things during that time make sense. Almost daily, I am still processing the huge hole we have in our lives without her… and the way Christ can take something so heartbreaking and turn it into something precious and beautiful.
We have three other kids: Will, Kate and Eliza. They are hilarious, impossible, smart, creative, strong willed and follow their birth order personalities to a fault! While I purposely try to capture our best moments on this blog and on Instagram, our life is far from perfect and tidy. I really love being a Mama, but it’s one of the hardest callings on my life.
One of the great surprises in my life has been the unexpected joy I’ve found in serving others, even in the midst of my own brokenness, both locally and globally. Recently, I’ve had the privilege of traveling to Ecuador with Compassion International and several times to Port-de-Paix, Haiti with Waves of Mercy. Each time I go, my heart gets squeezed a little more and I have a deeper longing to be part of what God is doing in the world.
As you read my feeble words, I want you to be filled with hope. I want you to sigh and say, “Me, too”, understanding that Jesus takes the broken parts of us and makes us new. And while it would be best to look you in the eyes and tell you, I’m glad to have the opportunity to at least write the words and pray you’ll know just how precious you are.